Thursday, April 14, 2005

not so clearblue

a colleague up and asked me if i am expecting good news. upon asking why she had made such a conjecture, she said that i was looking a little "haggard" (gasp! or maybe i heard wrong) and "drawn out" than usual. well, i could not possibly refute her keen sense of observation, for i did in fact feel that i looked like crap of late. pale-faced and sleepy-eyed. on hindsight, it was no wonder that i slept through 12 straight hours on a saturday two weekends ago and still felt like i could sleep some more. something's already gone awry, biological-wise.

other than that, there is a disturbing absence of morning sickness and faint spells. i feel like i've been cheated. all those tv shows and movies where actresses uniformly flutter their hand over their mouths before spewing down a toilet bowl as a universal sign of pregnancy, now what's that about? if anything, it made me doubt even MORE of my own situation.

so i went and made izad get me a non-Mustafa Centre issue, pharmacy store-bought 'clearblue' HPT. and promptly peed on it.



i'd waited and waited and waited for the complete plus sign to appear, the bimbo that i am, coz the picture on the box clearly printed the plus sign as indication that one is pregnant. but the vertical line had already appeared dark blue, and i need not have waited for the horizontal line (which remains mysteriously faint), because that would mean it's negative (you know, minus = negative? duh).

so there.

other than that, my boobs have been hurting like hell lately. it feels like they've run a marathon and didn't do those stretching exercises you're supposed to do before running marathons. however, i insist they haven't been growing any bigger. they're just... reconfigurating, i suppose.

i lifted my shirt to izad for expert opinion, in any case. he exclaimed in shock, saying the nippies have grown to extraordinary proportions. then i prohibited him from touching them (haha). coz they hurt like hell, of course.

i took a hard look just to make sure. i think they used to be crinkly raisins. they're somewhat... less dehydrated raisins now.

Posted by nurhana at April 14, 2005 09:59 PM